It has been a month and 19 days since Andrea died in the game. So far she's been dead for 3 days, game time. Last night the group only moved 80 feet in the whole FOUR HOUR game. This was almost as bad as the 6 hour game at Kat's where we didn't even get to the 2nd round of combat with a wilowisp--and it was the first thing that happened.

I'm noticing a trend with the game and when the DM comes to a stand-still and loses intrest, the players can just forget their game for good; unless one of you actually wants to pick up a rule book and read something for a change, u might be screwed.

I even went so overt as to go in the other window and TELL you to pay attention, twice--but you ignored me. I'm not saying you can't talk, but damn! Why even play? If you just play cuz u don't want to hurt my feelings just tell me.... I don't really give a rat's fart whether u play or not--Don't be so dramatic! I'll just find a new group.

And then, when it's over, everyone tells me it was a great game and so exciting. Whatever. How superficial do you think I am? I guess, if you call 4 hours of shit jokes exciting... I admit it was funny, until it hit the downward slide that affected the game. I guess it's just upsetting to struggle so hard to keep the players' attention and to put this stuff together and then nothing happens and no one actually plays, then you guys turn around and try to act like it was one of the best games we ever played and oh-so-'exciting'. Sounds to me that the all the compliments you have ever given me about the game were always fake and autonomous, now--like when you say, "Bless You!" after someone sneezes.

Hell, if I went to go see a movie with you all--which, apparently, was what the game was about, then u'd just fuckin' talk thru the thing anyway. Think I'd rather see it alone, so I could actually get thru something for a change.