Just thought this was neat... Marcus, the vampire, really was trying to kill me in our dream fights (not wholly unlike real life):

To dream that you are fighting to the death, indicates that you are unwilling to acknowledge a waking conflict or your own inner turmoil. You are unwilling and refusing to change your old attitudes and habits.

I had an amazingly symbolic dream last night. Kinda freaky tho....

Again, I was being chased by vampires (this has happened alot to me lately in my dreams...). I fought a bunch of them and won, only to keep getting attacked. Ends up Marcus was the main vampire. He had been turning everyone I knew into the throngs of undead he sent after me.

There was one point when he even came after me himself. He had just bitten and killed another friend, right before I got to their house. I saw him lurking off in the woods, calmly walking away. So, I leaped into the air and flew over and landed in front of him (this is a dream LOL let me just tell you tho, that'z another very symbolic thing to me. Usually in my dreams, when I fly, I'm terrified. I'll be running and each time I take a step I have a harder and harder time keeping my feet on the ground. I start accidentally pushing myself in the air and start losing speed because I can't touch the ground. Or I start floating upwards, but I can't stop. I don't want to fly in my dreams beacuse I'm so scared of never being able to get back down, to not have any control and die...). Well, I managed to do it.... I pushed myself off the ground sooooo very fuckin' hard that I flew right over the trees and struggled so hard to get myself to fall back down. Which I managed to do, but it was tough.

He took one look at me and immediately recognized me. He had been looking for me and was hurting my friends to hurt me/find me. As soon as I landed he ran straight towards me with huge fangs and enormous claws. He was going to try and kill me--make me like him--but I just ran straight towards him too. Right before he reached me I dodged to the side and grabbed him and threw him over my head behind me, causing him to slam into a tree.

It hardly phased him tho. He just stood back up like some pale, inhuman freak and charged me again, wicked claws extended and bloodlust in his eyes.... There was no way I could stop him, I had to hide.

So, I did the only thing I knew how to do, even if I was scared... I flew.. LOL Str8 up in da fuckin' sky! I flew the fuck away as hard as I could....

Don't remember some of it here....

Somehow I ended up in a cemetary at one point. This was my 2nd encounter with him. I ran around thru the whole cemetary trying to get away. I kept dropping stuff everywhere--grey beads I think. He was obsessed with picking them up. I told Jeff (I think it was him. Whoever it was was telling me that we had to run) that was with me that as long as I kept dropping more when he was almost done finding them all, he wouldn't chase us anymore--it was buying us time. Well, I kept him going for a bit and managed to get alot of beads spread out in the cemetary and we ran.

I went to my parents' old house--the one I grew up in in MI--to lay low and think for awhile. I hid in my room. Kept talking to my family and everything was going okay, but I hid in my room alot. Angie was even there. She was being a regular, annoying bitch, but it was more like the old Angie--instead of the pathological liar she is now. She was all up in my business too.... God she annoyed me LOL.

Well, I was on a computer, trying to find something I could do to save myself. I just wanted to give up and hide. Well, I ended up meeting this person-- but we chatted for like forever. Some unfortunate boy who had been bitten by Marcus, who I started to care for after awhile. He was turning into a vampire because of him. It was lust at first sight :) LOL j/k I don't know what it was... it was some weird lust/love thingy (isn't that how vampires work tho? LOL), but he was still turning into a vampire and would be under Marcus' control. I had to find some way to save him before he died and became a vampire.

--And again.... My sister Angie kept trying to eavesdrop on our conversations... She would try to read over my shoulder on my computer, follow me when I'd go meet him... stuff like that... I had to keep it hidden, cuz I was playing with fire. If I won a fight against Marcus, the other guy would just die anyways and become a free-willed vampire. I had to find another way to stop it. Otherwise, I would lose the one person that really mattered to me because of Marcus, whether he was there or not.

I think I woke up there... Stupid dreams never have an ending.

What does it mean? Marcus was a fucking monster, and turned everyone around me into people just like him. Him just walking away after turning another friend into a vampire was just how cold and uncaring he was...the fact that i got attacked by friends after he changed them was about how little I meant to people. No one tried to help me... They all joined him instead.

I had to conquer my fear (the flying bit) to even try to survive. and the 2nd time I flew, I had total control. Which means I learned how to handle myself. I knew how to run, and I knew how to do it right.

The gray beads indicate my fear, fright, depression, ill health, ambivalence and confusion. (or that'z what grey is supposed to mean). His obsession with making me feel that way, it was like he was cherishing and keeping each bead which symbolized my trauma. It was sickening to watch him fumble with all the beads with his disgusting claws and that weird fucking psychotic smile on his face. It also makes alot of sense because that'z a metaphor for how I got away. I manipulated him with those feelings... acting weak and acting like I cared for him to make distance between us--to loosen the grip-- so I could suddenly disappear. Grey is can also mean that u feel emotionally distant or detached... which is what I had to do to everyone to get away. Someone kept telling him where to find me in real life. I had to close myself away from all my friends because one of them was a monster, but I didn't know who.... It'z sad when ur friends know u don't want your stalker to find you, and know enuff to not tell YOU that they told him, but still do.... and can act like a friend to your face.... So every time he found me, I moved again and cut another likely source out of the loop... telling everyone not to tell HIM or THEM about where I was... and it would happen again... Ended up moving about 6 times in about 1-2 years... and was left with no friends left, because he kept finding me--even when I'd move places an hour away from where I used to live.... Not until I cut EVERYONE out of my life, did I finally find peace. I made new friends and never saw him again... *rolls eyes* Hence, friends turning into vampires....

Kinda ironic that Jennifer and I used to call him an emotional vampire LOL

My parents house is easy... It was the first place I ran.... None of my family were vampires in my dream... They never turned their back on me in real life either. I probably dreamed of the house in MI cuz I told him I was gonna go there cuz then he'd never be able to find me again. When I was going thru it, I really just wanted to go there so bad and never turn back. And my sister, Angie, was just being my sister, Angie. LOL She really is like that... Always trying to get me in trouble or cause trouble... It was all cute tho... turned into a lil romeo & juliet with vampires thing...

The guy was just everything I looked for in love. I couldn't get past the vampire bit tho.... Sounds like me now. I don't get in relationships, I don't let people get close, I keep up those walls.... all because it's a way to keep myself protected from being hurt again. --but that'z the symbolism behind that person. Marcus still rules over me and affects my life. He still tells me what I can and cannot do--and there are very very real consequences (in my head) to making a wrong decision. That last part of the dream is the only important bit, the rest is just telling me why I'm like that....

That imaginary guy is the moral of the story: If I don't let go of my past, I will always see monsters--even when there are none....

*kicks the dust on the ground while looking around a bit. Then, spits off to the side and walks off*

As Seen on Broken Toys...

jimsdogisscooter: what areyou up to tonight - are we bout to share drinks/
Drooler55: lol
Drooler55: no
jimsdogisscooter: damn it Jimmy
Drooler55: :P
Drooler55: LOL
jimsdogisscooter: you are anbsolutely no fun
Drooler55: ROFLMFAO
jimsdogisscooter: none at all i say.
jimsdogisscooter: none!

Ah, yes... A good DM can get anyone to role-play...:

MattatPeay: JIMMY
Drooler55: MATT
Drooler55: :-)
MattatPeay: how are you?
Drooler55: good
Drooler55: u?
MattatPeay: im ok
Drooler55: kewl
MattatPeay: coughing
Drooler55: NOOOOOOOOOOO
MattatPeay: but other than that
Drooler55: YOU HAVE SARS!
Drooler55: *runs away*
MattatPeay: no
Drooler55: ::i can't hear u, i ran away::
Drooler55: ::u have to shout::
Drooler55: LOL
MattatPeay: NO I DONT
Drooler55: lol

ipumpgasrealgood: i'm just staring at u
ipumpgasrealgood: LOL
ipumpgasrealgood: kinda laughing
ipumpgasrealgood: wonding wtf?
ipumpgasrealgood: LOL
bradnashville: oh
ipumpgasrealgood: wondering*
ipumpgasrealgood: wishin i had cigs
ipumpgasrealgood: LOL
bradnashville: what's funny?
ipumpgasrealgood: my teeth hurt
ipumpgasrealgood: :(
ipumpgasrealgood: i'm grinding my teeth
bradnashville: what was funny about staring at
me??!?!?!?!?!?!?!
ipumpgasrealgood: is that normal for people
who aren't smoking?
bradnashville: yes
ipumpgasrealgood: i want to quit smoking, but
i'm not right now
bradnashville: you're normal
bradnashville: what was funny about staring at
me??!?!?!?!?!?!?!
ipumpgasrealgood: just left all my cigs in my
friend's car
ipumpgasrealgood: LOL
ipumpgasrealgood: cuz i'm stupid
bradnashville: what was funny about staring at
me??!?!?!?!?!?!?!
bradnashville: ok
ipumpgasrealgood: bought 3 packs and lef
tthem all there
ipumpgasrealgood: LOL
ipumpgasrealgood: now i'm grinding my teeth
and they're starting to get sore
ipumpgasrealgood: LOL
bradnashville: let's do a relaxation exercise
bradnashville: start at the top of your head
ipumpgasrealgood: LOL
bradnashville: feel your scalp relax
ipumpgasrealgood: don't do a relaxation
excersize
bradnashville: feel it tingle
ipumpgasrealgood: i know where my knives
are
ipumpgasrealgood: i want nicotine...and it
might be in ur blood
bradnashville: nice
ipumpgasrealgood: specially if u've been to
waffle house recently
ipumpgasrealgood: LOL

aZnSxYgAyGuY69: oh ipump my name is Robbie by the way
aZnSxYgAyGuY69: =)
ipumpgasrealgood: that'z nice
aZnSxYgAyGuY69: if u care in which u don't so what's the point in telling u
ipumpgasrealgood: now ask me if i care
ipumpgasrealgood: hehe

This is my homage to Melanie ( heheh :) PFFFFT!):

Drooler55: ur 22 aren't u?
ASBdude2 k 2: yup
Drooler55: k
Drooler55: thought so

Dawn..... why u gotta be like that? :(

*sits and thinks for awhile*

ROFLMFAO I'm so stupid:

Jim says:
ok - i am helping 2 friends leave the workd of coce - i have some stong thoughts about it - but save ot for a coffee or dinner conversation
I R NINJA FROG! (playing sims 2 brb) says:
i don't like cock
I R NINJA FROG! (playing sims 2 brb) says:
ooops
I R NINJA FROG! (playing sims 2 brb) says:
coke
I R NINJA FROG! (playing sims 2 brb) says:
ROFL
Jim says:
lol
Jim says:
but you do like cock?
I R NINJA FROG! (playing sims 2 brb) says:
ROFLMFAO
I R NINJA FROG! (playing sims 2 brb) says:
ROFLMFAO
Jim says:
hja h a
I R NINJA FROG! (playing sims 2 brb) says:
i'm drunk and can't type
I R NINJA FROG! (playing sims 2 brb) says:
ROFL

Jim says:
are you talking to me - i just came bak in here to shut down
I R NINJA FROG! (playing sims 2 brb) says:
lol
I R NINJA FROG! (playing sims 2 brb) says:
no, i was talking to Santa
I R NINJA FROG! (playing sims 2 brb) says:
sorry
Jim says:
ho ho ho
I R NINJA FROG! (playing sims 2 brb) says:
mixed communication
I R NINJA FROG! (playing sims 2 brb) says:
LOL
Jim says:
who was that
I R NINJA FROG! (playing sims 2 brb) says:
LMFAO
I R NINJA FROG! (playing sims 2 brb) says:
that was dawn
Jim says:
what?
I R NINJA FROG! (playing sims 2 brb) says:
who?
I R NINJA FROG! (playing sims 2 brb) says:
the girl a sec ago?
I R NINJA FROG! (playing sims 2 brb) says:
or the ho ho ho?
Jim says:
no - ho ho ho - who said that
I R NINJA FROG! (playing sims 2 brb) says:
LOL santa
I R NINJA FROG! (playing sims 2 brb) says:
our cell phones crossed lines is all
I R NINJA FROG! (playing sims 2 brb) says:
LOL
Jim says:
i was thinking of the jolly green giant
I R NINJA FROG! (playing sims 2 brb) says:
we have that family plan
I R NINJA FROG! (playing sims 2 brb) says:
it fucks up sometimes
I R NINJA FROG! (playing sims 2 brb) says:
oh yea
I R NINJA FROG! (playing sims 2 brb) says:
he's talking to him
Jim says:
u am so lost
I R NINJA FROG! (playing sims 2 brb) says:
lol
I R NINJA FROG! (playing sims 2 brb) says:
excellent....
I R NINJA FROG! (playing sims 2 brb) says:
LOL
I R NINJA FROG! (playing sims 2 brb) says:
*rubs fingertips together supervillian style*

Drooler55: IMA GET A SAMMICH!
Drooler55: lol
Drooler55: brb
ASBdude2 k 2: hurry up boi
Drooler55: lol back
Drooler55: u cannot rush the perfect sandwich
Drooler55: LOL
ASBdude2 k 2: true
Drooler55: lol
ASBdude2 k 2: im not perfect though
Drooler55: ur not a sandwich either

naz4ra2: so i guess gong to theUNC derby
party is out of th equestion ?
ipumpgasrealgood: lol what?
naz4ra2: I was asking if you would like to be
my date to University of North Carolina
Law School Derby party
ipumpgasrealgood: LOL North Carolina?!
ipumpgasrealgood: ROFLMFAO
naz4ra2: yes
ipumpgasrealgood: lol
naz4ra2: I go every year
ipumpgasrealgood: gee...most people just
want to take me as a date to chucky
cheese down the street
ipumpgasrealgood: lol

1000 LIFE LESSONS or HOW TO STAY ALIVE FOREVER: November 2004: "Rule #206
Don't say anything to anyone on a computer that you wouldn't say to them in person in a note that you toss at them and run."

AtomicChicken01: "where is the strangest place youve made woopie"
"in my bellybutton"

jiffypop27: i'm sure you get all kinds of pvts
from people who can't read
ipumpgasrealgood: lol
ipumpgasrealgood: that'd be redundant
jiffypop27: indeed
ipumpgasrealgood: lololololol
ipumpgasrealgood: yep...they all think i pump
ass real good
ipumpgasrealgood: *rolls eyes*
jiffypop27: i get some dumbass remarks, as
well, but i'm sure yours are better.. hehe
ipumpgasrealgood: LOL
ipumpgasrealgood: no, the ones i hear are
just fuckin stupid LOL
jiffypop27: heheh i bet

Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
but if u came and saw me, u'd realize that i was a creepy 80 year old 400 lbs guy
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
i would stalk you, but i can't get out of bedj
J@V!3Я says:
LMAO!
J@V!3Я says:
i'd PLAY GAMES WITH U! ^_^
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
oh, the sandwich between my fat rolls hurts so bad!
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
ROFL
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
would u play titanic with me?
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
i'll be the ship!
J@V!3Я says:
u know just cause ur older and obeast doesnt mean u cant have firends ^_^
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
LOL j/k
J@V!3Я says:
LMAO!!

El Jersey Devil says:
trust me--I've been dying like a field rat
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
lol
El Jersey Devil says:
I've racked up more deaths than Fippy

El Jersey Devil says:
speaking of which, did you get the demo for Unreal Tournament?
El Jersey Devil says:
Pretty damn kewl
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
no
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
isn't that old as hell?
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
LOL
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
98?
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
LOL
El Jersey Devil says:
the new one
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
oh LOL
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
in that case
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
no...
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
LOL

Adam Imagine: ADD
Adam Imagine: it's easy as 1-2-4
Drooler55: hehe
Adam Imagine: i meant three
Adam Imagine: but that was funny too
Drooler55: lololololol

THAT'Z A NICE JACKET, NAWWW MEEEEEENNNN??!?!?!??!?!?!?

El Jersey Devil says:
silly g-nolls
El Jersey Devil says:
ruined BB pelts are for Rigote!
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
ROFL
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
make sure to ruin them first when u skin them...otherwise, they are good for nothing
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
*snickers*

Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
*runs in circles*
J@V!3Я says:
AHH!!
J@V!3Я says:
*runs after u*
J@V!3Я says:
B-UNNY!
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
LOL
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
i like bunnies
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
*smiles*
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
*gets a doped up look and falls on his ass*
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
i want my bunny!
J@V!3Я says:
ME TOO!!! *grabs another bunny nibbling on it* there so yummy!
J@V!3Я says:
lmao!!
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
*flies into a murderous rage and pushes u into shark-infestered pirate waters*

Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
*pukes on u*
J@V!3Я says:
O_O
J@V!3Я says:
mmmm..*rubs it in*
J@V!3Я says:
how'd u know i was into this?
J@V!3Я says:
*grazes his nipple with the piece of half digested piece of meat*
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
ROFLMFAO
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
OMG
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
lol
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
ROFLMFAO

Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
omg
J@V!3Я says:
what?
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
nothin
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
LOL
J@V!3Я says:
lol
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
OMG
J@V!3Я says:
lol what?
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
nuttin
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
LOL
J@V!3Я says:
LOL STOOPP!!!
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
ROFL
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
OMFG!
J@V!3Я says:
...
J@V!3Я says:
*glares*
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
LOL

TallBoyBGKY: You'll have to excuse my tongue it has a mind of its own
TallBoyBGKY: intresting
Drooler55: lol
Drooler55: wtf?! what?

Artist: Filter
Song: Hey Man Nice Shot

I wish I would've met you
now it's a little late
what you could've taught me
I could've saved some face
they think that your early ending
was all wrong
for the most part they're right
but look how they all got strong
that's why I say hey man, nice shot
what a good shot man
a man
has gun
hey man
have fun
nice shot
now that the smoke's gone
and the air is all clear
those who were right there
got a new kind of fear
you'd fight and you were right
but they were just to strong
they'd stick it in your face
and let you smell what they consider wrong
that's why I say hey man nice, nice shot
what a good shot man
a man
has gun
hey man
have fun
nice shot,
I wish I would've met you
I wish I would've met you
I'd say
nice shot."

Drooler55: I like your pants around your feet, i like the dirt that'z on ur knees, and i like the way you still say please while your looking up at me

Drooler55: *jumps up and down*
Drooler55: ur supposed to be all like...ooooh jimmy msg'd me!
Drooler55: *swooon*
Drooler55: LOL

*sigh* I missed my message board.... *pets it*

The message board is back up. You can find the link under Navigation to the right. I'm not reposting the old site it was connected to tho. I want to change it all. It'z time for a little bit of a change.

Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
omg
El Jersey Devil says:
lol
El Jersey Devil says:
no shit, rite?
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
LOL
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
we speekz l33t
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
lol
El Jersey Devil says:
ez stuf
Toi, tu est comme le soleil, et je peux pas supporter la lumiere... says:
ya 4 shurz

Long load, fast read, but really fuckin funny: :)

Albino Blacksheep - Flash / Tales for the L33T (Romeo and Juliet)

drooler605: u don't like my music

javi3r0072: yes i doooo

drooler605: cuts u off

drooler605: LOL

javi3r0072: O_O

drooler605: no, u said it was too 90's

drooler605: LOL

javi3r0072: lmao when!?

drooler605: just now

javi3r0072: shut uppp

drooler605: u said, I HATE YOU AND UR MUSIC IS FROM THE 90'S

javi3r0072: lol yes jimmy

javi3r0072: mind u i listen to it

drooler605: *slaps jimmy and pushes him off the cliff so the sharks will eat him*

javi3r0072: NOO!!!

javi3r0072: >_<

drooler605: *dies*

drooler605: LOL

drooler605: ooooh look

javi3r0072: *jumps after u *

drooler605: i'm swimming in the ocean, it'z soooooo fun

javi3r0072: *calls his aquatic friendS*

drooler605: OMG! IT"Z GOT ME!!!

javi3r0072: O_o

drooler605: WHY GOD WHYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!?!???!??!?!

drooler605: <
drooler605: GLUB GLUB

drooler605: LOL

drooler605: it'z tooo late for me

drooler605: SAVE URSELF!

drooler605: LOL

drooler605: <>

drooler605: GOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

javi3r0072: i was carving the turkey and in come my husband in a jealous rage UVE BEEN SCREWING THE MILKMAN!! HE SCREAMED...HE WAS CRRRAAZZYYYY UVE BEEN SCREWING THE MILK MAN!!...and then he ran into my knife..he ran into my knife teennnn times....*bobs head*

javi3r0072: lmao

javi3r0072: shut up *pulls u out of puddle*

drooler605: ROFLMFAO

drooler605: wtf?!

Boom Boom Ba
Metisse
(The Next Best Thing Soundtrack)

A-boom boom ba

A-boom boom ba
A-boom boom ba
A-boom boom ba

Can you hear my heart beat in this bond
Do you know that behind of this bond
Lies the deep desire I'm in love hey
Make a wonderful love if I may
All my dreams to be all I can do
Only I love, only love
And you say I knew we should find a new way
Make a wonderful love if I may

Can you hear my heart beat in this hurt
Do you know that behind of this hurt
Lies the deep desire I'm in love hey
Make a wonderful love if I may
All my dreams to be all I can do
Only I love, only love
And you say I knew we should find a new way
Make a wonderful love if I may

Can you hear my heart beat in this hurt
Do you know that behind of this hurt
Lies the deep desire can you love hey
Make a wonderful love if I may

Make a wonderful love if I may
Make a wonderful love if I may
Can you hear my heart beat in this hurt
Can you hear my heart beat in this hurt

llJaVi3Rll: wanna see my nephew!!
llJaVi3Rll wants to directly connect.
Drooler55: not really
Drooler55: lol
llJaVi3Rll: ...

Javier is a punk-ass bitch! LOL

Told Jeff this earlier while I was playin' SWG:

"Bounty Hunter missions are alot like sex:

You spend forever trying to find someone--and when you do, it takes forever to get there. When you finally do, then BAM!--you shoot a couple times and it's over... Then, after awhile, off you go, tryin to find someone else...."

Albino Blacksheep / Flash / Everyone Else Has Had More Sex Than Me

Popele get so pseisd at me for tihs:

It deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are the olny iprmoetnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer is at the rghit pclae. You can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm bcuseae we do not raed ervey lteter by itslef but the wrod as a wlohe.

Did I mention the walls of the space station were either made of gold or a really, really bright yellow? *shrug* It was weird...

*trips on a cat toy and almost lands on his face*

"Eve of Destruction? Dobson Unveils Gay Plot To End The World"

The Wall of Separation

Well, I had a really fucked up dream last night... I frequently have very vivid and weird dreams. They play out like odd movies.

Well, I was just flying around in space in my Y-wing (LOL wtf?) and I saw a friend of mine up ahead flying around in that YT-1300 (or whatever it's called... the same kind of ship as the Mellenium Falcon... again... wtf?). Well, it's BT (again, wtf... I've never met BT. Hardly even know him...) and he just bought his ship and wanted to have a little, friendly space duel with me to test out his new ship, before he ran into any imperials. I had never been in a duel in space before, so I was all for it as long as he went easy on me. I spent most of my time escorting smuggling frieghters for the pirate captain Nym or the rebel alliance.

So, we have our little dogfight and I end up rockin' really fuckin hard! BT hardly even smacks me at all and I stay pretty much behind him the whole time and tear thru his shields and slam into his ship a little. He was flying solo, so there wasn't really anyone to help him on the dish turret on his ship. He radios that he gives up; so, I back off and he lets his shields recharge while we talk.

NEwayz, he ends up asking me if I wanted to go to the Correllian system with him. I was all like, "Sure! I have to head out that way anyways. I was on my way to Dathomir..." (OMFG! I think I play waaaaaay too much Star Wars Galaxies LOL)

Well, I'm sitting there waiting on him and he's just sitting there quietly for awhile and then suddenly he pops back up on the radio and is like, "What the hell?! My fucking hyperdrive won't work!" Oops! LOL Guess that was my fault... LOL So, I tell him that it'z kewl, I'll just escort his ship to the closest space station and we'll get his ship repaired.

We get there with no problems and land in the hanger. Well, then we get out of our ships and we go walking around the station. Everyone is all buzzin' around like crazy cuz there was some fight going on in the kessel system. Everyone was getting ready to head out there. Other people are going crazy about some spice pirates bothering some freelance smugglers (I hate spice pirates... I've worked for Jabba, but don't like him much; and, I worked for Nym. Nym is kewl. He looks like this mean azz tentacled freak, but he's a big softy on the inside LOL). Then I suddenly realize that I recognize BT from a long time ago--that we had met before in person.

Well, somehow BT and I end up at a rave and bunch of my other friends (Jeff, Dawn, Sara, Jennifer, Scotty) are there, and BT's Trina is there, too-but she keeps wandering off. (No, Trina, you didn't look like that pic :P LOL I believe you now... hehe but hardly saw you, cuz u kept leaving and it was dark.) --and I saw Melanie, too. She was really hyper and funny--she was like the center of everyone's attention. A few of us were doin' some madglowstringing! At one point, either Jeff and I, or BT and I, where glowstringing in tandem, throwing pairs of glowsticks back and forth. It was kewl as hell! Loud music, glowsticks, beer--all out party! We were havin' all kindsa fun...., until the vampires showed up! LOL Then we were running like hell!

Yo, that shit was scarey, too! Stupid vampires ruining our party... I didn't even have special abilities in this dream to fight back. We all just had to run. :( Guess I could've whapped em upside the head with a glowstick, but probably better I didn't LOL. We never did see Trina again. LOL sorry Trina... I think she was okay, tho.

Everyone ends up leaving and it'z just BT and me again. We sit there and talk for forever. Tells me all kindsa stuff--like about how his real name wasn't BT (think it started with a "J", I don't remember anymore.) and how he just goes by BT, cuz he got caught with drugs while he was on parole or something and now he's scared he has a warrant out for him. WTF?! LOL I don't even remember everything we talked about. It was alot. I know a good chunk of the convo was about our cats. Something about how his one cat didn't like his big, fluffy cat, but they get along alright now, since he moved in with Beari and Trina; and I was like, yea my cat Rachael doens't like angel cuz she's a retard LOL *shrug*

NEwayz, then he leaves and for some reason I'm at my parents house calling up sprint customer service, cuz I was trying to connect to the internet on my cell phone to play SWG (wtf?! LOL--Keep in mind... while I'm doing this... I'm sitting in front of their computer, which has a cable modem and u can't play SWG on a cell phone LOL wtf, yet, again?). The girl was all nice on the phone and tried to help as much she could, but we were both a little confused about what the other was talking about, so we just started talking LOL.

Anyways, that was a weird convo. She was telling me that she was glad I called, because her father wouldn't let her talk to her friends or go anywhere, cuz he was some overbearing freak (she was around my age, 24); but, that since this was a business call, he couldn't make her get off the phone. It was weird. I didn't want to hang up and leave her alone, cuz I really felt bad for her, but I had to go. So, we exchanged numbers so that she'd have someone to talk to and I could make sure she was alright--plus she was uber kewl and friendly.

I think that's when I woke up. I was staring around the room and couldn't focus and layed there thinking about it. I left a bunch of stuff out, but I was trying to keep this already long story at least marginally short--plus some of it I'd rather keep to myself. :P

That dream pretty much ranks up there with some of the most pointless and weird dreams I ever had.... LOL

THE END!

#13 Sleepy Jesus 11/6/2004 06:01PM PST
It's hard to be religious when certain people are never incinerated by bolts of lightning.

(courtesy of albinoblacksheep.com)

The deleted blog actually was for me to comment anonymously some things that are troubling me, but I decided against it.

Outsider: "



Take the What High School
Stereotype Are You? quiz."

From: Dawn

Why Gay Marriage is Wrong

1. Homosexuality is not natural. Real Americans always
reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester,
and air conditioning.

2. Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in
the same way that hanging around tall people will make
you tall.

3. Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all
kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry
their pets because a dog has legal standing and can
sign a marriage contract.

4. Heterosexual marriage has been around a long time
and hasn't changed at all; women are still property,
blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still
illegal.

5. Straight marriage will be less meaningful if
homosexual marriage were allowed; the sanctity of
Britney Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be
destroyed.

6. Heterosexual marriages are valid because they
produce children. Homosexual couples, infertile
couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry
because our orphanges aren't full yet, and the world
needs more children.

7. Obviously gay parents will raise gay children,
since straight parents only raise straight children.

8. Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a
theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are
imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only
one religion in America.

9. Children can never succeed without a male and a
female role model at home. That's why we as a society
expressly forbid single parents to raise children.

10. Gay marriage will change the foundation of
society; we could never adapt to new social norms.
Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the
service-sector economy, or longer life spans.

YAY! I can blog again!

PED XING says:
I have an adventure idea...
PED XING says:
You all can rescue the fair maiden, Chlamydia! Doesn't that sound fun?!

I passed by his garden and marked one eye. The owl and the panther were sharing a pie. The panther took pie crust, and gravy, and meat--while the owl had the dish as its share of the treat. When the pie was all finished, the owl as a boon, was kindly permitted to pocket the spoon--while the panther received knife and fork with a growl; and, concluded the banquet by...

--Lewis Carroll

Employees readying class-action lawsuit against EA - PC News at GameSpot

I stole this from Melanie's blog, who stole it from Luciana's blog, who stole it from Jasara's blog.

Sorry Everybody

I'm sorry world world that a slight majority of my countrymen are idiots.

I am never ever ever talking to my parents again.... *turns green*

EW EW EW EW EW EW EW EW EW! *washes hands fifty times like someone with OCD!* CLEAN! EVERYTHING MuST BE CLEAN! *paints over everything*

*prjectile vomits everywhere* OMFG! I am soooo scared.... *cries*

bubbadc: we have to go now bye
bubbadc: lol
taricus: plus the many arguements i've had with republicans about civil rights
taricus: they tell me and my friends online that we are tree hugging hippies
taricus: and we're all like, since when does equal rights make us tree-hugging hippy liberals?
taricus: civil rights are for everyone
taricus: ewwww
taricus: bye
taricus: i think i know what'z going on
bubbadc: bye
taricus: 2 more years of therapy
bubbadc: sex
taricus: LOL
taricus: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
taricus: LOL
taricus: omg
bubbadc: therapy
taricus: 5 more years
taricus: UR PAYING FOR IT TOO!
taricus: ROFL
bubbadc: longer
taricus: ROFL
taricus: bye
taricus: GO!
bubbadc: lots of sex
taricus: the pain....
taricus: ROFL
taricus: noooooo
taricus: SICKOS!
bubbadc: that's why youre here
taricus: lol
bubbadc: bye dads getting frisky
bubbadc: can't stop him
bubbadc: lol
taricus: *cries blood*
taricus: LOL

"WHY GOD WHY?!?!?!?"

bubbadc: ears bleed?
taricus: ROFL
taricus: omg = oh my god
taricus: LOL
bubbadc: o.k. i'm slow but i'm learning
taricus: ears are bleeding cuz i'm not supposed to hear that stuff
bubbadc: you got here somehow lol
taricus: i'm still traumatized from the 'tube-steak incident'
taricus: ROFL
bubbadc: it wasn't the cabbage patch lol
taricus: ROFLMFAO
taricus: OMG
bubbadc: tube steak?
taricus: *ears bleed more*
taricus: ROFL
taricus: i was playing on the comp and u didn't know i was there
bubbadc: get over it i have more to tell lol
bubbadc: omg
taricus: dad asked what was for dinner and you told him you wouldn't mind some tube-steak
taricus: and my ears bled
taricus: ROFL
taricus: it was horrifying
taricus: ROFL
bubbadc: oh yeah
taricus: ROFLMFAO
bubbadc: you got over it
taricus: no...i need therapy
taricus: ROFL j/k
bubbadc: o.k. but let me tell you everything before you start therapy lol
taricus: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
taricus: LOL
bubbadc: lol

bubbadc: you don't want me to get that drink and dad is all excited because he thinks he might get lucky lol
taricus: ROFLMFAO
taricus: OMG
taricus: *ears bleed*

This is mymom trying to make me laugh... she works in the medical field and I studied it (altho, i don't want to go into it anymore LOL):

bubbadc: multiplication effect?
taricus: yea
bubbadc: whats that
taricus: when u mix things it just makes each one worse than it was
taricus: b4
taricus: when someone has had a drug
taricus: one drug can interact with the other and make it stronger
taricus: not addition wise, but multiplication
bubbadc: oh got it i'll forget the surgar and have the drink
taricus: LOL
taricus: that'z not what i meant
bubbadc: a stiff one
bubbadc: strong
taricus: i meant the steroid will interact with the drink
taricus: ROFL

I was talking to my mom LOL:

bubbadc: i yelled a a bunch of people today. just give me seriods
bubbadc: monday i'm turning her ass in
taricus: i'm usually signed on here 24/7, even if i'm not on the computer LOL so i get all the im's
taricus: ROFL
taricus: what?
bubbadc: grandma cranson has cancer
taricus: did u just say, just give me steroids?
taricus: ROFL
bubbadc: i need a drink i'm on steroids and they make me mean and moody
taricus: ROFLMFAO

I R NINJA FROG! says:
ur not even there dude
I R NINJA FROG! says:
!
I R NINJA FROG! says:
why should i waste my breath?
I R NINJA FROG! says:
LOL
J@V!3Я says:
i really dont jimmy lol i promise!!
J@V!3Я says:
shut up!
I R NINJA FROG! says:
bah
I R NINJA FROG! says:
THIS PRESENTATION HAS BEEN BROUGHT TO YOU BY TAMPAX!
I R NINJA FROG! says:
lol
J@V!3Я says:
LMAO!!!!

Drooler55: i've noticed something bad
llJaVi3Rll: lol
llJaVi3Rll: aww
llJaVi3Rll: whats that?
Drooler55: everybody i talk to online lately shows me their dick within the first week of me talking to them
Drooler55: it bothers me
llJaVi3Rll: u havent seen mine! ^_^
Drooler55: i know
Drooler55: thanx
Drooler55: LOL
llJaVi3Rll: mwuahaha
llJaVi3Rll: lol
llJaVi3Rll: ur welcome
Drooler55: ur respectful
llJaVi3Rll: i just think its sick
Drooler55: lol
llJaVi3Rll: lol mhmm
Drooler55: fuck, i'll look, but don't think i'll respect you later
llJaVi3Rll: ppl online now adays r nasty std whores
Drooler55: ROFLMFAO
llJaVi3Rll: LMAO!!!
Drooler55: and don't expect a return either
Drooler55: ROFL
Drooler55: i'm selfish like that
Drooler55: like that'z really gonna make me like them
Drooler55: it'z like...how many other guys have u shown that to today?
Drooler55: ROFL
Drooler55: SICKOS!
Drooler55: ROFL
Drooler55: i swear
Drooler55: gay people are so dumb
Drooler55: no wonder we can't get married
Drooler55: look how the majority acts!
llJaVi3Rll: lol nah its just guys in general
llJaVi3Rll: yea i agree on that
Drooler55: yea, i guess
Drooler55: but they get a little too free when they decide they are gay
llJaVi3Rll: *huggles u* im happy were not like that
Drooler55: lol me too
Drooler55: it'z a viscious circle
llJaVi3Rll: like wtf u know oh...i saw ur penis..its hypnotizing me..take me..now..
Drooler55: the lack of acceptance throws people in hiding
llJaVi3Rll: lol
Drooler55: hiding the fact they are gay makes them act in ways they wouldn't in public
Drooler55: u know?
llJaVi3Rll: yea
Drooler55: cuz they expect it to never go anywhere that they are a whore, cuz it'z hushed
llJaVi3Rll: i came out and i still dont fucking go sleeping around and get all stds infested
Drooler55: i wish people had the morals we do
llJaVi3Rll: lol
llJaVi3Rll: but meehh then we wouldnt be one of a kind
llJaVi3Rll: ^_^
Drooler55: instead of thinking they can act however they wish and there's no reprecussions
Drooler55: i hope they all end up on gay porn sites
Drooler55: ROFL
Drooler55: ROFLMFAO

*Burt and Ernie pick up stones and throw them at a squad of soldiers* Don't worry kids! Allah is with us! *Barney pops out with an AK-47*

Children are Combatants in PA Ideology

Keep in mind that this is an example of propaganda used to combat propaganda, but I'm sure we can all recognize that by now. What with the last election still fresh in our minds. :P

DAMN YOU ISRAEL FOR KILLING ARAFAT WITH OLD AGE!!!

News

I'm never ever ever ever ever ever smoking again either....

How come every time you drink too much, you've smoked too much too?

I'm never ever ever drinking again.... :( LOL *rolls eyes*

This was to my parents, trying to get my dad to play battlefield: 1942 with me:

taricus: hey, u there?
taricus: anyone?
taricus: ANYONE?!
taricus: ROFLMFAO
taricus: *pokes you on the shoulder*
taricus: hello?
taricus: LOL
taricus: WAKE UP!
taricus: it'z 6:30pm
taricus: do you know where ur children are?!
taricus: LOL

Drooler55: http://www.madman.com.au/tism/
Drooler55: see the pic at the bottom of the page?
llJaVi3Rll: waiittt
Drooler55: watch the bunny playin the keyboard
Drooler55: LOL
Drooler55: he looks like them with ears LOL
llJaVi3Rll: O_O
Drooler55: the whole covering themselves up is kinda dumb tho
Drooler55: ROFL
llJaVi3Rll: lol
Drooler55: unless they're burn victims
Drooler55: LOL then i can understand
Drooler55: LOL
llJaVi3Rll: lmao omg!

My favorite song right now (Album Edit):

TISM - Everyone Else Has Had More Sex Than Me

I wonder if Tower Records can import a cd for me...?

I support the death penalty for all suicide bombers!
--Chip Copperchops

BLAH BLAH BLAH!!! Livschitz, I'm hungry! Freeze-dried icecream!

Weird TV

Okay, now I just need to do my links and such----->

And then I get to hook it back up to the site and the message board. After I'm finished with them. :) YAY!

Another one: Head of Vecna!

Here's a funny gaming story. It'z been told so many times; by so many people, it is practically an urban legend--but it really is true. The Tale of Eric and the Dread Gazebo [rec.humor.funny]

hehe

Veronica posted this: Mirror.co.uk - Brian Reade

(as seen on Melanie's blog.

From Javier:

doomarkus98: no matter what..u still and always have a little pice of my heart
javi3r0072: mwuahahaha *runs off into a corner with it*
javi3r0072: its miinnneeeee *hisses at passer bys*

drooler605: can i put this on my blog?

drooler605: this is funny

drooler605: ROFL

javi3r0072: what?

javi3r0072: put what?

drooler605: this

drooler605: ROFL

javi3r0072: lol sure! ^_^

drooler605: nm i won't

drooler605: ROFL

javi3r0072: ...

javi3r0072: ok

javi3r0072: ITS CAUSE IM BLACK AINT IT!! *BOBS HEAD AROUND SMACKING LIPS*

javi3r0072: robbie lil bro changed the station i had it on ;_;

drooler605: lol

drooler605: uh huh

drooler605: u gonna wear a cowboy hat now?

drooler605: ROFL

javi3r0072: he put it to his depressing love/country station

javi3r0072: his lil bros gay >_<

javi3r0072: lol

drooler605: LOL

drooler605: he's such a FAGGOT!

drooler605: LOL

drooler605: j/k

javi3r0072: robbies all...he wants u babe...if he tocuhes u i'll fucking kill him and im like babe shut up he doesnt

drooler605: LOL

javi3r0072: and he's all...ur not the first bf he's gone andmy bf has went and cheated on me with him

drooler605: mmmmm....as long as i'm not one of the brothers, that'z hott!

drooler605: LOL j/k

javi3r0072: and im like u know what it might be fucked of ur lil bros part but even more fucked from ur bfs

javi3r0072: and i was like and im not like any of ur exs

drooler605: that'z just fuckin rude, dude

javi3r0072: sidesif i was ever gonna jump on another cock it would be for an older one and not a 16 yr old one

drooler605: hey that rhymes

javi3r0072: mhmm

javi3r0072: very

javi3r0072: and i dont cheat

drooler605: ewwwww

drooler605: u said....

drooler605: mmmmm GRANDPA!

drooler605: ROFL

javi3r0072: lmao shut the fuck up

javi3r0072: not that old

drooler605: ROFLMFAO

drooler605: he should fake him out

drooler605: you should be "str8" and then act like he's into some nasty dude

drooler605: just so his bro will sleep with the nasty dude

drooler605: ROFLMFAO

drooler605: seriously

drooler605: if it'z repeat offense

javi3r0072: lol his bro knows im gay

drooler605: that'z like some fucked up complex LOL

drooler605: change

drooler605: i mean'

drooler605: 'change'

javi3r0072: lol his lil bro always gives me candys and stuff though ^_^

drooler605: ROFL

javi3r0072: robbie gets mad

javi3r0072: lol

javi3r0072: mmmsnickers..

drooler605: he's trying to get you high on sugar so u won't know what'z happening

drooler605: LOL

javi3r0072: or twizzlers or gummy bears

drooler605: he's a date rapist

drooler605: LOL

javi3r0072: lol

javi3r0072: he bought robbie abag of gummy bears the other day and robbies like...he's so wierd..

drooler605: lol

javi3r0072: i dont know where he gets all this money froma nd always buys us such random crap

javi3r0072: lol

drooler605: he wants to sleep with Robbie

drooler605: ROFL

javi3r0072: lol

javi3r0072: shut up

drooler605: LMFAO

drooler605: but u know what i hate?

javi3r0072: ...

drooler605: when guys call their shirts tops

drooler605: LOL

javi3r0072: when ur pubs get to long?

drooler605: so gay....

drooler605: ROFL

javi3r0072: lol

drooler605: well...yea that too LOL

javi3r0072: yea thats annoying

drooler605: but then i put dreds in them LOL

javi3r0072: lmao!

javi3r0072: jimmy!

javi3r0072: >_<

javi3r0072: lol

I'm so very, very lonely :(

MSNBC - Voters pass all 11 bans on gay marriage

While we're at it, if we make african-americans do all our work for us and ban women from working or voting, we (the white males) can finally have the free-time to sit back and have a good 'ol fashioned cross-burning in that fag's front yard. *Looks back at his wife* GET UR ASS BACK IN THE KITCHEN AND COOK ME SOME CHICKEN, BITCH!

*rolls his eyes*

Taricus (11/01/04 23:58 PM)
people who believe in civil rights shouldn't be considered "liberal"... Everyone should believe in that

SimpleWoman (11/01/04 23:59 PM)
we are normal!!!!

SimpleWoman (11/01/04 23:59 PM)
LOL

SimpleWoman (11/01/04 23:59 PM)
I agree! Civil rights are for everybody

Taricus (11/01/04 23:59 PM)
YEA!