It'z springtime, again--or very nearly, at least... I can already feel it in my bones, like the way your stomach turns when you first kiss someone.

Soon, it'll be my b-day (march 20!!! WOOOOO!!!); the windows in the house will all be able to stay open; and, of course, I'll probably be in heat,... again... hehe

Spring does a funny thing to me. When I look in the mirror, all the stuff I hate about myself seem to no longer exist. It may be the pheremones talking, but I really do start to like myself. (Not like that! LMFAO!) My speech becomes smoother and relaxed. My body feels good. I long to spend entire days with my friends.

I think about all the times Dawn and I have sat on the floor, rolling dice, just joking and laughing and not thinking about anything else in the world. The cool, breeze from the open windows playing with the curtains, as it stirs the lingering smoke with itz sweet smell.

It'z almost like spring makes your senses so much more powerful. Waking up in the morning to the tangy taste of orange juice and the savory scent of maple sausage and eggs. --Leaning up against the kitchen counter and watching the birds play in the backyard, under the budding trees. It'z overpowering. It'z hard not to be moved by it.

It'z the very moment when u realize that it really is another year--and this time, you promise it'll be better than the last. This year, you'll be happier, try to get out more, spend more time with friends. This year will be the best year, yet.

It'z a renewal. You're watching the world come back to life and it fills you with a desire to live with it.

Just doing your normal routine isn't so boring and drab anymore. I remember riding with Dawn, just to get outside. Rolling down the windows and listening to Shawn Colvin. We rode around with no destination. Our destination was the drive--just talking and listening to great music. We would stop at the park and play catch, or pack up our character sheets and dice and go role-play until the sun started to set (and holding our character sheets down against the wind with chunks of pavement that came loose).

It'z the beginning of summer, and swimming, and late, warm nights downtown that always seem to last until morning. Meeting new people and random conversations that lead to new friends. Spring is when, at the end of a shower, you dive back under the hot water before you have to step out into the cold to dry off. That moment when the water runs over you in a huge wave that warms you completely, the hot water tasting sweet on your lips.

I love spring. :) Spring is my bitch...